Thinking of christmas without you makes me sad, its not you its your addiction, To Mum | tasha1987's Blog

Hey Mum, Christmas is near and without you it seems impossible, i remember our good days and smile but sometimes that just makes me worse. I just wish you would hurry and see sense before its all to late. Things seem a little easier but it doesn't take the worrying away, i can go hours without thinking about you and then all of a sudden you just pop into my head and i feel sad again. I think about what we would we be doing now? Part of me wants Christmas to hurry up and pass but im doing this for my kids, making it extra special! I hope that your still out there and wondering about me the same as i wonder about you, if you feel anything towards me and your grandchildren. I still miss you every second of everyday and hope one day maybe when your better you can look back at all this and read this, I feel apart of me missing and that ache round me heart i cant shift, the sickness has actually settled but appears now and again, The anger turns to tears and then the tears turn back to anger! but even on days when i sit and think i hate you, i still don't, i long for you to call and tell me your better and hope these feelings disappear! i love you with all my heart mum and ill always be here waiting! Love your daughter Tasha x